have i always been a filial son?

that whats i ask myself these days....

to be frank, i have not really been the best i could and know i can be.
i am not as bad as everyone thinks.
i just have loads of stuffs to do.

i have to work, i have to go to school
these 2 things is more than enough to fill up my WHOLE week.

lets just see the facts
total number of job i had since 16?
3
shortest period of time not having a job?
1 week
longest period that i didnt had a job since 16?
3 months.
which means for almost 4 years,
i have been working almost non stop week after week,
only taken that short period of time off,
after the whole senor taco incident.

7 days a week.
how many full whole day i am not doing either of those things in a year?
so in the night or on off days, i would to be relaxing and not stressing over silly
stuff, such as like a little mess on the floor or very messy rooms.
it is just little stuff that doesnt need people shouting to get it done and complaining about me not being at home all the time

UNDERSTAND THIS!!!
I AM ONLY NOT AT HOME,
IS TO HELP YOU WITH YOUR BURDEN AND LIGHTEN THE LOAD FOR YOU!

everytime, she say i am always out of the hse
where am i most of the time?
WORK!!!! or SCHOOOL!!!!
yes, i know i come from a single-parent family.
with 3 siblings.
so financially-wised, we are not as stable as we would love to be.
so, i chose to work.
to be a lesser burden.

work for myself.
work for money to spend.
to help clear my school fees.
to pay for my own transport.
to pay for my own expenses.

is that so much to ask that i get my rest without the nagging?
without being the maid of the hse once you step in it?

how i wish that the first sentence EVERYTIME you walk into the hse is
"hey, how was your day?" or at least something nice and decent
and not
"WHY IS THIS NOT DONE?" or "WHY IS THAT NOT DONE?"

even like that time when i strike 4d,
first thing that didnt came out from you was "WOW, CONGRATS"
it was "how much are you giving me?"
you know how sad was that?

i sometimes just dun understand my mum.
i try my best to be nice.
is it so hard to understand how i feel? :(

please understand that i really love to be a person who does not need to worry about stuff like that.
i already understand what i need to do,
just understand what i am going through.